sigh...2 more days..its so miserable...

There was some hope...then, it was dashed just like that...it was as if being thrown down from a high rise building,struggling to be saved...with darkness everywhere...with tears streaming like heavy rain drops...with no one hearing ur scream...with no one hearing ur pain...then the head smashed to a zillion pieces, with all parts of the brain being thrown everywhere...the truth of all things doesnt matter anymore...hence it will remain deep inside till ... who knows...

it wasnt sumthing i've expected 2 months back...that's before i came back for the longest break i would ever have...i just wish i could lay there doing nothing...i just wish i could really fulfill things i need to do...i just wish i could meet those i REALLY need to meet...no.. it just doesnt turn out that well...it will be another of those tormenting periods i will go thru..it will be another series of repeated nightmares...till only GOD knows when...i am gonna build up my strength..i am gonna stand up again after falling so many times...
it doesnt matter when im coming back...the coming trips i promise they will be silent ones...those who 'spotted' me will be the very lucky ones...those who dont, its okay...

farewell is only what i wana say...