half a day at the hospital...urhh...

it wasnt a good day... i woke up from a nightmare it which someone was trying to shoot me and i was hiding myself until someone shouted my name..then, i woke up and realised it was already 10minutes past 8am.. i was supposed to be at the hospital by now...arh...i jumped up from my mattress, brushed my teeth. took a quick bath and rushed to the hospital..the traffice was horrid expecially those along green lane.. biasa ler.. everytime also like that once it's 8 sumthing in the morning... by the time i reached the parking lot, OMG.. the number of cars is like so walau eh.. i was lucky enough to turn at the last junction before the exit gate and parked at one of the last few spots... adui... had to walk a distance to the outpatient building...

since it was my first time there after i was 21 years old, i had to register as a new 'patient'..used to be under mum or dad, im not sure... when i received my number, i thought it would be pretty fast since there were only 6 numbers to go.. but i didnt know that some patient would actually take like 1hour..lau eh..waited till i was very frust dee.. i wasnt that sick in the beginning but after sitting like an idiot for nearly one hour, it started to get on my nerves dee... when it was FINALLY my turn, after about 1 1/2 hours waiting, it took less than 5 minutes for the doc to ACTUALLY said its normal to have difficulty in breathing and for fingers to turn cyanosis...WALAU EH...if i had know this is the result i will get, thank you..i wouldnt wana see any dr... no comments..really...even those of us in medic school also know that once ur fingers turn cyanosis, there's something wrong especially the heart ... i was wondering how will i be in the next 5 years...that's only if i could survive NORMAL condition...

then, went over to the pharmacy to get my medication...nearly fainted when i saw the number...there were 100 more people to go...okies...i was nearly fainting dee... for the next 45 minutes or so, i couldnt do anything much..so i listened to my MP3(thank GOD i brought along) and observed the people around me.. most are REALLY elderly patients who are pretty weak and i really pity them for coming all by themselves... some of them have hearing problems till their wives had to shout at them to convery any msgs.. some are pretty weak to walk on their own... i couldnt say im a filial daughter but i certainly hope that i could accompany my parents nex time they are to come for further check ups... my heart goes all out to those i saw suffering... i cant really do much but to offer help to those that i can afford like helping a lady to get up from the chair and calling someone's family member using my hp and refusing the lady's payment... all this might meant so much to them as they are thanking me abundantly... what mum said was kinda true... i cant ..i really cant stand seeing all those suffering in front of me without doing anything... i wish i could to something more...