mummy...

poem for my dearest mum...happy early mother's day

MUM...

i dont know if i ever told u before

i know i seldom truly speak up until recent years...

i could still remember vividly when u stopped working

i was wondering why?

i was asking how come?

but as time passed by

and when i think back...

i realised all the hardwork

i realised all the pain

i realised all the sufferings u went thru silently

i realised all the struggle u endured

i realised the sacrifices u madefor us...

ur dearest babies...

MUM,

i remembered u asked me before

why didnt i ask for a younger sibling...

i didnt know how to answer at that time...

was it becoz i fear of being left alone?

was it becoz i fear of not being loved?

was it becoz i fear of not being cared?

was it becoz i am happy just to have bro?

or was it im just so stupid to think about it?

im sorry...i still dont know how to answer...

MUM,

throughout my schooling years

i hardly saw ui hardly talk to u

i hardly share anything with ui hardly spend time with u...

i went to school before u woke up...

when u came back, i was in tuition

when im free, u were too tired and went to bed

i didnt care much about it last time...

but when i think back...

i hate myself for not understanding

i hate myself for not caring

i hate myself for not concerning...

MUM,

i can still remember how tired u were

i can still remember how pressured u were

i can still remember how stressful u were

i can still remember how painful u went thru on certain days...

u might not know

but

i did see those tears in ur eyes...

i did feel the pain in ui did feel the suffering in u...

MUM,

u might think i was crazy to have this thought...

but i used to think i wasnt being loved...

i will NEVER forget how rebellious i was last time...

i can still remember how i hated brother

i asked why i was the one being scoldedi

asked why i was the one being 'blamed'?

how i wish he didnt have to be so smart

how i wish he didnt have to score straight As

and putting a hell lot of pressure on me in every exam...

i am truly sorry for my foolishness

i am truly sorry for my stupidity

coz i know, if not for him...

i wouldnt have challenged myself to the max

i wouldnt have pressured myself to the max

i wouldnt have worked hard

i wouldnt have made so many sacrifices

i wouldnt have learnt to fend for myself

i wouldnt have learnt how to be independent

i wouldnt have learnt how to stand by myself

i wouldnt even be here pursuing my dream...

MUM,

over these years

i was searching for true frens...

i told myself i wouldnt have a best fren

but i was wrong...

coz all these while, i do have a best fren..

who is always by my side

who NEVER leaves me alone

who NEVER fail to love me

who NEVER fail to care for me

who NEVER fail to support me

who NEVER fail to encourage me

who NEVER fail to mend my broken heart

who NEVER fail to share my pain

who NEVER fail to share my burden

who NEVER fail to share my joy

and im proud to say that its YOU...

MUM,

i can NEVER repay u for all the things u did for me...

i can NEVER thank u enough for every thing...

but i swear to u...

i will NEVER forget the promises i made

i will NEVER forget all the suffering u went thru for us

i will NEVER forget anything that u did for us...

coz i know...

u truly luv us

u truly care for us

u truly treasure us...

MUM,

if i were to be given a choice...

i swear to u...

i will NEVER trade anything for this family

i will NEVER want anyone else to be my mother except YOU

i will NEVER want anyone else to be my father except DAD

i will NEVER want anyone else to be my brother except KOKO...

i will NEVER disappoint u all anymore...l

ove u all from the bottom of my heart to the bottom of soul.....