im confused...

since the day u volunteered to help me with the 'impossible' task,
i asked myself whether ...
is it u that i have been searching for?
is it u that i have been looking for?
is it u that i have been hoping for?
i do ask myself not to dream,
i do ask myself not to hope,
but it doesnt help much when...
my heart longs to hear from u so much,
my ears long to hear the beep or ur msgs or ur warm voice when u call,
my eyes long to see ur name on my phone,
i cant help it...

when u told me how sick u were,
my only wish was to see u at that moment,
my only hope was to be there beside u or give u a warm hug,
but it is so disappointing when i cant,
it is so painful when i can only pray that u're ok,
it is so torturing when i cant see u and share ur pain...
i was worried when u told me u're alone,
coz i dont want u to feel the loneliness that i have been going thru...
i wan u to feel that u have someone beside u always...
coz i am always there for u...
u know i care about u more than myself...

no matter what,
i really hope everything is ok on ur part,
i will always pray that u are happy and blessed,
i will try to accomplish the 'task' u assigned me...
but im wondering how can i do it...
as im questioning myself whether...
have u conquered my heart without me knowing...
or...was is just my illusion or dream...???